wine flavored rain

Thanksgiving,
I am so thankful there's a day dedicated to being thankful. Everyday should be like this.
My friends, my family, my life, the trees, the weather, the sun and the moon,
i could go on forever. Everything I have is exactly everything I need, nothing more nothing less.
Spent the day with family, last night with friends, perfect.
Now I am catching rain drops in my glass of wine, puffing on smog,
wondering. pondering, thinking.
I wish I didn't attach my heart to my hip bones because icantstopthinking about
YOU. when I know I'm the farthest thing from your thought stream.
Oh the joys of an aching heart.
Good night my sweet
sweet world.
be happy, be safe.
hug someone you love
real tight.
xo

and here we are

all drip dropping under the same rainy sky,
there's something about it being 60 degrees and raining right now that is so fitting.
'tis the end of November.

Holy melatonin!
i am out like the democrats.
g'night sweet world xo

sCrATching, at the screen door

Cigarettes always taste different after a good cry, so much more meaningful and delicious, like real good sex. It almost makes me want to light up another but I'm not about to trade this warm bed for the freezing patio, oh hell no, and besides I don't need it.
Oh this day has gone places, it's been onehelluvaloong day, and here's to tomorrow which is sure to be the same.
Hopefully less tears and less bad new, better dreams and things.
I'm just itching for the snow
I can't wait to just be in it, for a moment until I realize I miss the sun.

I need to make art,
now more than ever.
It's the only thing I can't do wrong.


catch a falling star.
xo

no PAIN, no GAIN

Everyone's life is so extremely different, all raised in such different situations. Sometimes I look back on my childhood and just wonder how I got through it, but I did. And here I am, so thankful I wasn't given a silver spoon. Mike and I talked this morning sharing our perspectives on our family and such, I learned alot. I want to write more later, for now I'm off for a gray day walk through the woods.





My eyes are open and so are my arms.

There are so many of us beings, do we need each other? or could we get by all on our own?
We're all bouncing into each other fucking up each other's shit up all of the time. Chaos is almost always happening, it seems.
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Today was great, I have such a great energy running through me lately. I hiked, did yoga, cooked up some vegetables and went to work, 'twas real lovely. It was a gorgeous day, sun high in the sky and it was so warm! It's going to be a switch transition into winter... if it ever comes. I like what's going on, it's been a perfect fall, thanks Michigan you've made these last few months a little more tolerable with the beauty.
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I need to make art, it's been weeks since I've sat down and had myself a good scribble, there's ink seeping from my pores. It needs to come out, I have so many ideas streaming from my brain. Sunday will be the perfect day to dedicate to art. It's a plan.
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Life at the house, here, has been rough. It's nothing I want to get into but I'm ready for everything to settle and the dust will clear, i''m hoping.
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Take a walk, make some art.
Good night my sweets, it's the week-
END.

it's warm over (T)here

Oh the places we go, the places we end up
states of mind and states, united.
Days pass, weeks, months. Holy November this is getting cold, dark, displeasing
yet my arms are still spread wide open, welcome. Ready or not here you are.
2011 is rapidly approaching, so soon. 2 more months to make this year complete.
I've been wide awake for hours, the sleep's still in my eye.
I want to go for a walk, the crisp cold air, bundle up, wear socks and scarves.
Feeling a wee bit
scatter
brained
but that's nothing new.

I don't know what I'd do without my friends
each and everyone of them. I am so lucky.

Enjoy the day, soak up some sun and store it in mind.
xo

high lows

climbing hills just to go back down and so on.
I don't mind the constant struggle, it's almost the only constant in my life.
Today I am frustrated at the world mainly the government, mainly the people in charge. There's nothing I want more than to stick it to the man right now.
I hate that green sheets of paper determine almost our everything,
where we live, what we eat, what we wear, the way we travel, the way we think, the way we are treated, the way we live.
People work long hard hours, making low pay, paying high taxes. Yet the day you fall ill or your body breaks, you are fat out of luck, because if you can't pay for your medical bills good luck trying to find someone to help you. And if you do find help it'll be you tugging on the cat's damn tail all day trying to make it budge.

The world needs to start all over, back to the beginning, back to the basics.
If you owe anyone anything it should be your love and affection and attention
for those are far greater gifts than paper stamped with faces saying one nation under god when we really belong to ONE NATION UNDER FRAUD.

sweet dreams, i hope for.
xo

minimal effort love

that's what i'm used to, it's what I grew up with. And today I was thinking about how when you're young everything you know about love comes from what you see your parents do. Shame if you have poor teachers because it's hard to find patient lovers, the type that guide you and redirect the aim of your compassion.
Never doing more than what was required, doing things to make the other person shut up and not doing it to make them happy, shelling out dollar bills instead of love, never showing love through affection, tuning out the other and not tuning them in.
I want to change the way I love, people need affection, need subtle reminders they're loved often.
blah blah blah
trying to break the ice around my heart
xo