dream a little

or don't

SURFACE SKIM

LOVE
A heart fully submerged in everything but;


FOCUS ON THE FUTURE,
I've been doing everything but;



LOOK OUT HERE SHE COMES

CONSTANT

crazy, the way things unfold.
i'm a hypocrite. i'm a liar. i'm a fake. i'm insecure. i'm out of control.
So many thoughts constantly weaving in and out, in and out, of the cracks in my mind.
Except when you're around, everything simmers down and washes away no thoughts to be found.
But this was the plan, this is how i wanted it, to stop thinking, stop feeling in preparation for this. this that has happened. this right now. this constant tug at my heart.
and guess what, i truly lost myself for a minute. i was so convinced that my heart was tied down, locked up, until SNAP, i tucked it into your back pocket hoping you'd find it. But now i want it back, i'll take it back. i can take it all back.
i just really don't want to be an inconvenience, a check on your to do list.
it hurts. my bad.
i want someone to want me, not feel obligated to me.
better luck next time.

everything i am is so necessary for my being. you can't pick and choose here
it's all or nothing.
whether it's right or wrong.
live and learn.
love and burn.

when you hurt so deep and the only thing causing it is yourself.